i've been living for 19 years now n i dont know abt who's my true friend..

sometimes i think abt a person and feel like they're my true friend..

but not long after that i start to doubt that..

many things made me so doubtful abt it..

moreover at my bday..

at my latest bday even she who i thought is my best friend didnt congratulate me..

i dont know if she really forget my bday or she thought that congratulation isnt important anymore..

my close friend now just know my bday frm FB..

most of them forget n just remember cz there's people congratulate me..

even my mom forget my bday n only remembered at night but she remind me if i already congratulate my sis's bday..

the one who congratulate my first is someone who i dont think would do that..

i dont know if she was just not sleeping at that dawn n she saw my bday at FB, i dont know..

but on top of that, i dont wanna think much abt it anymore..

i will just called who i think are my true friends..

i wont mind if they think the same abt me or not..

cz i think true friends wont mind abt it..

but if i dont feel that they think the same abt me so my deed for them will be limited to what i think is enough..

my true friends ??

who ??

them ??

are they really my true friends ??

this life doesnt insurance us with anything..

it doesnt promise us with happiness all the time..

it doesnt promise us that our life would always going smoothly..

it doesnt promise us that we will always meet good people..

it doesnt promise us that our deed will be paid the same..

it also doesnt promise us abt when we will find our true friends or even our mate..

we ourselves who can guarantee how our life will be going till the end..

single lady

 
okay, here the title of this post can resemble me.

18-going-to-19 single lady.

what a life.

sometimes im happy being single.

but in this time i feel like wanna hv a boyfriend.

yea i know that having a boyfriend will cause a different trouble instead of being single.

but i dont know, that feeling just come out.

n soooo....

me n my friends, most of who also single ladies ( i dont know what's wrong that makes us still single right now. lol ), seem like having the same syndrome :D

i called it 'single-syndrome'

OMG. being single really make me 'crazy' and a lil bit 'galau'.

even i know that being in a relationship can make me feel 'galau' more often :T

the syndrome is that most of us dreamt about having a melodious-sound-guy.

who can really sing for us.

with guitar on his hand will be better.

dont u all think like that too ?? :p

one day we watched a good looking guy with cool voice plus his guitar singing soooo great, and most of us said, 'when can i have a guy who can sing me a song as great as him??'

girls with boyfriend dont laugh at us ok.

this just kinda syndrome. 

so long time without boyfriend make us get this syndrome.

but it's fun having this syndrome esp if u know that u're not the one who get that syndrome. lol

people usually say that we have to dream high.

so i hv a dream abt what kind of boyfriend i want.

nothing's wrong with a dream, isnt it ??

dreaming is free, so dream as high as u can, as u want.

xoxo the single winidepu :D

the camp

i just got home from a camp called 'campjur' last Saturday.

3 days out frm Surabaya.

pretty good but not as hard as the last year.

i'll tell u abt the camp which is contain 155 people, but sorry i cant provide the pics cz we were not allowed to bring any electronic device.

Day 1.

we had to arrived at our university in 6am on time.

then the committee checked our stuffs n we will get a punishments if we bring something that prohibited.

the punishments are we have to write a passage with 4 paragraphs on one page folio + a bible verse 6 times multiplied by your violations + another bible verse 30 times.

n if u dont do any violations but ur group member did , u still had to do a punishments which is write the passage + a bible verse 30 times.

we had many group in this camp, there r outbond group, inbond group, room group, and pray group.

but the most important group is the outbond group cz we must prepare so many things with this group.

before we go to Sawiran, we had a session, it's saomething like seminar if i can say.

n after we arrived at Sawiran they divided us to the room consist 4 people.

then we still had 2 sessions left which is done at 11pm.

n thats not thelast activites in day 1.

we still must do the punishments for the violations, with the condition that one hour after the last sessions every lamp must be turned off, and it is impossible to do the punishments in just one hour, it is impossible to do it in the next morning also cz we will had many activities that wont allow us to do the punishments which is so much.

so i and my roommate used our flashlight n do it in the dark until about 12.30am.

Day 2.

after we could sleep at 12.30am, we must woke up at 4.45am.

n we had to pray together at 5.

then we had inbond.

so we given a map and we have to find 6 places with a game in every place.

actually the games were not so hard to do, but our group which contain 10 people got a stinky game at first.

so there was a long rope with a spoon in every end n we had to pass that rope through our shirt.

the bad thing is that the rope had a really really bad smell, i dont know how they made that smell.

that was like the smell of rotten eggs mix with oyster, shrimp paste etc.

there so many of my friends that vomit cz of the smell.

n we had to go to other places with that smell on our body.

imagine that bad smell on your body in about 2 hours.

geez.

but whatsoever we passed that all n never forgot to take a bath directly after the games over.

until night we still had the sessions but for this day we didnt need to do the punishments.

what a relieve right?? :)

Day 3.

we still had to wake up at 4.45am n had to pray together.

then we had outbond.

we had 5 place to go with games in every place similar like the inbond but with harder n longer tracks n also we had to think harder than the inbond for the games.

that was so much fun with my group.

until we got home n arrived again in Surabaya at abt 10pm.

i think the committe did it well.

myb there were problems but it still fun.

yes, we were exhausted but every camp always like that i think.

there were so many memories.

so many laugh.

solve problem together, do the punishments together, sleep so late at night n wake up so early in the morning together.

i think i will never forget this camp.

xoxo winidepu for hospitality 2011 :)

SOMETIMES this all happens...

sometimes people judge us from the outside n cz they dont know how it feels inside.

but sometimes thats us who dont want to tell them what we feel.

sometimes we just want others to know n understand us by themselves which dont always work.

sometimes we ourselves who dont want to understand that people couldnt always understand about what we feel.

sometimes we just wanna be understood but dont want to understand.

boyfriend or boy friend ??

18 years old.

never be in a relationship.

this mate issue always make me a lil bit 'galau' ( thats indonesian terms for something like uneasy feeling ).

when i ever close to hv a boyfriend then everything being ruined.

i hv many boy friends but no boyfriend.

how this can be ??

sometimes i think theres something wrong with me.

but then i realize that some of my friend never be in a relationship also.

so im not the only poor one.

but to be honest i wanna hv one.

oya about two days ago my mom tell me her conversation with one of her friend when they made a phone call.

my mom said that her friend hv an acquaintance.

he's 28 years old n he likes tiny girls.

isnt it weird that he only wants to be with tiny girls ??

but thats relief me cz that made me know that there must be someone who still like a tiny girl like me.

LOL

and as i am a tiny girl so she remember about me n intend to match me with him.

firstly, im just laughing.

dont u imagine 18 with 28 ??

oh nooo.

when he already wants to get married, im sure i still want to find a job.

then my mom said that she doesnt want to force me.

i will find my mate in time.

so i think, ' ok, mom. i trust u, n this mate issue wont worry me anymore.'

mom's words do relief me.

xoxo winidepu

the accident going bad

what i will talk about is the accident that just happened this afternoon.

my senior was with me for some assignment.

not long after that,,my lecturer call her cz she said that my senior violate a major rules.

she cant attend the final exam for her penalty.

just to tell u, this penalty is so bad.

cz it can make u fail in every subject n if u fail, u have to repeat every subject in this semester which means u have to pay evenmore.

so she asked my lecturer, 'how did u know that i'm here n do violation ??'

my lecturer said that there's someone who told her.

and my senior knew exactly who she is.

n surprisingly, 'that girl' texting my senior said sorry after that.

me with one of my friend who know this story feel so sad about this.

but my senior said, 'nothing to be sad about. even if i cry, it won't change anything. what we have to think is how can i pass all the subjects with no score frm final exam ?'

ok, frm this story i think something abt 'that girl' :

1. is that really a need to report someone's violation to the lecturer, even if 'that girl' think that something bad is have to be punished ??

2. myb 'that girl' want to make herself looked not too bad in my senior's eyes, but myb the 'sorry' word shouldn't be just TEXTED. if she really felt sorry for her action she must be show more effort. saying 'sorry' in face-to-face can be one way. with just TEXTING i didnt think she really feel sorry for what she did. 

but then i salute to my senior for how she reacted to this situation.

for not being panic.

for not taking this situation too hard on her.

myb she will cry at home.

myb she feel really panic inside.

but what i saluted here was that she wasn't show it in front of people.

that she could control her emotions so she's not down at all.

i hope the best for her.

being too kind is bad

so guys how abt the title ??

ring any bell in your head ??

any experience in your life ??

hmm ok.

here i dont want to say that being kind is bad.

thats good being kind to people.

but dont forget u still need to make urself do good. 

do happy.

dont ever u do something kind that make urself bad.

EXCEPT, u know that those people would do the same kind thing to you.

it's not about selfishness.

it's about not being so dumb coz of kindness.

u see, when u did kind things to people, NOT EVERY people will realize how u do that kind things.

maybe u hardly do that things,isnt it ??

but trust me, NOT EVERY people will realize it and do the same kind thing to u.

so EXCEPT, u REALLY dont want any reward for what u've done....

i firmly tell u to not being too kind to people.

think about urself also.

not just about others.

being selfish is not good.

but sometimes we need selfishness for protection.