boyfriend or boy friend ??

18 years old.

never be in a relationship.

this mate issue always make me a lil bit 'galau' ( thats indonesian terms for something like uneasy feeling ).

when i ever close to hv a boyfriend then everything being ruined.

i hv many boy friends but no boyfriend.

how this can be ??

sometimes i think theres something wrong with me.

but then i realize that some of my friend never be in a relationship also.

so im not the only poor one.

but to be honest i wanna hv one.

oya about two days ago my mom tell me her conversation with one of her friend when they made a phone call.

my mom said that her friend hv an acquaintance.

he's 28 years old n he likes tiny girls.

isnt it weird that he only wants to be with tiny girls ??

but thats relief me cz that made me know that there must be someone who still like a tiny girl like me.

LOL

and as i am a tiny girl so she remember about me n intend to match me with him.

firstly, im just laughing.

dont u imagine 18 with 28 ??

oh nooo.

when he already wants to get married, im sure i still want to find a job.

then my mom said that she doesnt want to force me.

i will find my mate in time.

so i think, ' ok, mom. i trust u, n this mate issue wont worry me anymore.'

mom's words do relief me.

xoxo winidepu

the accident going bad

what i will talk about is the accident that just happened this afternoon.

my senior was with me for some assignment.

not long after that,,my lecturer call her cz she said that my senior violate a major rules.

she cant attend the final exam for her penalty.

just to tell u, this penalty is so bad.

cz it can make u fail in every subject n if u fail, u have to repeat every subject in this semester which means u have to pay evenmore.

so she asked my lecturer, 'how did u know that i'm here n do violation ??'

my lecturer said that there's someone who told her.

and my senior knew exactly who she is.

n surprisingly, 'that girl' texting my senior said sorry after that.

me with one of my friend who know this story feel so sad about this.

but my senior said, 'nothing to be sad about. even if i cry, it won't change anything. what we have to think is how can i pass all the subjects with no score frm final exam ?'

ok, frm this story i think something abt 'that girl' :

1. is that really a need to report someone's violation to the lecturer, even if 'that girl' think that something bad is have to be punished ??

2. myb 'that girl' want to make herself looked not too bad in my senior's eyes, but myb the 'sorry' word shouldn't be just TEXTED. if she really felt sorry for her action she must be show more effort. saying 'sorry' in face-to-face can be one way. with just TEXTING i didnt think she really feel sorry for what she did. 

but then i salute to my senior for how she reacted to this situation.

for not being panic.

for not taking this situation too hard on her.

myb she will cry at home.

myb she feel really panic inside.

but what i saluted here was that she wasn't show it in front of people.

that she could control her emotions so she's not down at all.

i hope the best for her.

being too kind is bad

so guys how abt the title ??

ring any bell in your head ??

any experience in your life ??

hmm ok.

here i dont want to say that being kind is bad.

thats good being kind to people.

but dont forget u still need to make urself do good. 

do happy.

dont ever u do something kind that make urself bad.

EXCEPT, u know that those people would do the same kind thing to you.

it's not about selfishness.

it's about not being so dumb coz of kindness.

u see, when u did kind things to people, NOT EVERY people will realize how u do that kind things.

maybe u hardly do that things,isnt it ??

but trust me, NOT EVERY people will realize it and do the same kind thing to u.

so EXCEPT, u REALLY dont want any reward for what u've done....

i firmly tell u to not being too kind to people.

think about urself also.

not just about others.

being selfish is not good.

but sometimes we need selfishness for protection.