i've been living for 19 years now n i dont know abt who's my true friend..

sometimes i think abt a person and feel like they're my true friend..

but not long after that i start to doubt that..

many things made me so doubtful abt it..

moreover at my bday..

at my latest bday even she who i thought is my best friend didnt congratulate me..

i dont know if she really forget my bday or she thought that congratulation isnt important anymore..

my close friend now just know my bday frm FB..

most of them forget n just remember cz there's people congratulate me..

even my mom forget my bday n only remembered at night but she remind me if i already congratulate my sis's bday..

the one who congratulate my first is someone who i dont think would do that..

i dont know if she was just not sleeping at that dawn n she saw my bday at FB, i dont know..

but on top of that, i dont wanna think much abt it anymore..

i will just called who i think are my true friends..

i wont mind if they think the same abt me or not..

cz i think true friends wont mind abt it..

but if i dont feel that they think the same abt me so my deed for them will be limited to what i think is enough..

my true friends ??

who ??

them ??

are they really my true friends ??

this life doesnt insurance us with anything..

it doesnt promise us with happiness all the time..

it doesnt promise us that our life would always going smoothly..

it doesnt promise us that we will always meet good people..

it doesnt promise us that our deed will be paid the same..

it also doesnt promise us abt when we will find our true friends or even our mate..

we ourselves who can guarantee how our life will be going till the end..